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03 September 2010 @ 03:53 am
work-life balance  
I think I take my work too seriously. Maybe. At least, I probably spend too much time and energy at work and workmates.

I don't know. Lately, I've been too sensitive with my job and how other people criticize, or worst, disregard the fruits of my labor. Or maybe I just feel taken for granted by people whom I look up to at work. Hmmm... probably because I got used to the fact that these people are there when I needed them most to guide me and encourage me to do the things I never thought I'd be able to do. Now, I just get directives and I don't even get a simple "Thank you."

Hay... I think jobs are supposed to be thankless because you get paid for it anyway but somehow I still yearn for that kind of validation that the work that I put in everything I do is appreciated.

I've probably turned a workaholic since the first time I got promoted, but before, I used to do tasks beyond my job description because I love what I do and I enjoy it as well. Don't get me wrong, I still enjoy what I'm doing more often than not. It's just that this time, I feel that I need to do my job instead of wanting to do my job.

For the past few weeks, I've noticed that I've been telling people that I love my job more often that I used to. I might just be convincing myself. *sigh* Honestly, it's sad if that would be the case.

I'm unhappy... I suppose. I've thought of jumping ship and move on to greener pastures. Even though it's possible, I opted to stay. It could be that I still love what I do and I don't want to lose my job just yet, but it could also be that I'm afraid to venture out and start from scratch again.

Ewan... Work's been eating me inside lately. I need to get away... seriously.